Last night I sat on the kitchen floor at Chateau Gadd and watched Michelle paint one of her walls. We talked about boys, music/concerts, interior design and God which are pretty much my favourite conversation topics. I love going over there because their house is always so light and peaceful and happy and I usually leave feeling that way. And sometimes there is nothing better than having a heart to heart while you’re sitting in the middle of the kitchen floor.
You know that Dr. Suess book, Oh, the places you’ll Go!? Well there’s a page in there about “The Waiting Place” where everyone is just waiting:
And I feel like that is my whole entire life right now. Waiting for my living situation to get sorted out. Am I moving in August? September? Moving in with Kim? With someone else? By myself? Will I have furniture other than my bed and dresser? Waiting for my job to get sorted out. Will anyone ever call me back? Will I get an interview? Will I have to go back to temping at SFU to pay my rent? Will I ever have health benefits? How many jobs do I have to apply for? I am even waiting for my freaking vacation to get figured out. And my hands are totally tied with all of these things. There’s nothing left for me to do but wait. Waiting for the Lord.
“I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living!
Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!”—Psalm 27: 13-14
In all honesty that verse is equal parts frustrating and uplifting for me right now. If you read the rest of that Psalm David goes back and forth between exalting God and crying out in anguish, so that seems about right. I just hope that I come out on the end of this with a little more patience, and knowing the peace and faithfulness of God a little bit better than I did in the beginning.
Totally unrelated: I have joined LinkedIn. I’m a little bit sceptical about its actual usefulness and am really not excited about having another social networking tool to maintain but it seems like all the professionals are doing it so now that I’m graduated I’d better join ranks. Find me, add me, and tell me why it’s so great or something.